You feel like a candle in a hurricane Just like a picture with a broken frame Alone and helpless Like you've lost your fight But you'll be alright, you'll be alright
Cause when push comes to shove You taste what you're made of You might bend, till you break Cause it's all you can take On your knees you look up Decide you've had enough You get mad, you get strong Wipe your hands shake it off Then you stand, then you stand
Life's like a novel With the end ripped out The edge of a canyon With only one way down Take what you're given before its gone Start holding on, keep holding on
Cause when push comes to shove You taste what you're made of You might bend, till you break Cause it's all you can take On your knees you look up Decide you've had enough You get mad, you get strong Wipe your hands shake it off Then you stand, then you stand
Everytime you get up And get back in the race One more small piece of you Starts to fall into place Oh...
Cause when push comes to shove You taste what you're made of You might bend, till you break Cause it's all you can take On your knees you look up Decide you've had enough You get mad, you get strong Wipe your hands shake it off Then you stand, then you stand
Let it go, Let it roll right off your shoulder Don't you know The hardest part is over Let it in, Let your clarity define you In the end We will only just remember how it feels
Our lives are made In these small hours These little wonders, These twists & turns of fate Time falls away, But these small hours, These small hours still remain
Let it slide, Let your troubles fall behind you Let it shine Until you feel it all around you And I don't mind If it's me you need to turn to We'll get by, It's the heart that really matters in the end
Our lives are made In these small hours These little wonders, These twists & turns of fate Time falls away, But these small hours, These small hours still remain
All of my regret Will wash away some how But I can not forget The way I feel right now
In these small hours These little wonders These twists & turns of fate These twists & turns of fate Time falls away but these small hours These small hours, still remain, Still remain These little wonders These twists & turns of fate Time falls away But these small hours These little wonders still remain
It's February 29... the day that happens only every 4 years!
Below are some quotes that are featured on the official website of our local production, "The Leap Years", which I found pretty meaningful:
It is not in the stars to hold our destiny, but in ourselves. - William Shakespeare
Coincidence is God's way of remaining anonymous. - Albert Einstein
A person often meets his destiny on the road he took to avoid it. - Jean de La Fontaine
In three words, I can sum up everything I've learnt about life: it goes on
- Robert Frost
And for those who are in love with the soundtrack that is featured together with the trailer of the movie.. check out the MV below:
The music was the soundtrack of the original motion picture "Merry Christmas, Mr Lawrence" from 1983. It was composed and performed by Ryuichi Sakamoto... (don't think it's by Ricky Ho, who was credited with Original Music in "The Leap Years".. perhaps they were referring to some other soundtrack.)
Latest (as of 07 Mar '08): Amendments were made on the official website of "The Leap Years" with regards to the soundtracks used in the movie. They are:
Feature Original Music byRicky Ho
Trailer Music Adapted byRobert WS
(Okie... Still no mention of the original composer... and who is Robert WS? Is he given credit for adapting music pieces..? I am honestly clueless. Fill me in if anyone knows how this works.)
Life sucks! And it is a fact that we all have to live with.
It is also a process of gaining and losing. Like how we lose our innocence when we gain experience. And how we lose ourselves when gaining the favour of others.
We all gain something and lose something in the process of living life. Some may lose more than they can afford, while others may have gained more than they deserve. But that is life.
Be thankful when we make a gain. Suck it up and move on when we lose (of course, whine a little along the way). But most importantly, cherish what we already have 'cos we'll never know when we will lose it.
Met my classmates today and it felt strange. I didn't have anything to say to them and I definitely thought they were kinda avoiding me. I really don't understand how I have the power to estrange a friendship simply because of how bitter I feel. I tried to make some small talks and I could see that Chin was trying too.. the rest just seemed like they didn't want to thread on land mine (honestly, do I look like I would chew off someone's head?!). How does it make me feel when my classmates are keeping a distance from me after knowing that I've failed?! It makes me wonder if my failure is contagious or am I too big a loser to come in contact with.
I tried my best to look as 'normal' as I would normally look.. I even put on a subtle smile despite feeling obligated and hypocritical. I have absolutely no confidence in myself and my closest friends are at a lost for words to console me.
Jaz thinks that I'm wallowing in my sorrows. Perhaps I am. Am I not allowed to? I have to go to school, I have to face my classmates, I have to re-do the module that I have failed and I have to live with the fact that I won't graduate with my friends. Can somebody tell me how the hell am I supposed to 'forget it' and 'move on' when I am in constant reminder of my failure?!
I am quite tired of constantly having to suck up the shit around me and move on in life like nothing has ever happened. I have to be the 'strong one' for my Mom to depend on, my relatives tells me that I have to be the 'strong one' cos I'm the eldest of three. Do I also have to be the 'strong one' for me when I screw myself up..? This failure is a big deal to me... before I suck it up and move on, is there anyone I can depend on emotionally?! May I for once be the 'weak one'?!
It is really not fair to vent my frustrations on my classmates 'cos they don't deserve it. I am trying my best to hide my resentment, but I hope people would just stop avoiding me and stop acting awkward around me. It just makes me feel worse.
I'm not expecting my friends to understand why this is such a heavy blow for me. I think what I need from them is some encouragement and support.
Already a week into the new year and nothing seems 'new' to me. Friends are still the same (whether in a good or bad way..), family is still the same (that's good if I'm fine with how dysfunctional it is..), my life is the same (erm... should I be thankful?!).
School's in. And guess what? It started with the module that I have to re-do (nothing new there!). The last time I was in school, I broke down 'cos I felt like a complete failure. Now that I'm back for the new semester, I can't help but feel resentful with myself for repeating something that I detest.
During the holidays, I grabbed every opportunity I could to bask in the company of friends. Whether it was shopping, supper, mahjong sessions, or a disastrous barbeque, it was my only way to forget the pain that was constantly bugging me.
No one has any right to tell me to 'forget it' and 'move on' because it is another half a year of my life that I have to spend to earn that degree. It is my graduation with my friends that I'm gonna miss 'cos I screwed up. I am trying my best to put this resentment behind me and just get on with what I'm supposed to do and get my damn bachelor degree, but the process seems to be a long and painful one.
I'm gonna have to meet my classmates again soon (yep, those who cleared the semester), and I definitely have mixed feelings. I know my failure has got nothing to do with them, but I feel betrayed and abandoned. It's the jealousy and envy, and I know it's not right, but I can't help it. I don't think anyone should expect me to be chirpy and all smiles when I'm in a place and surrounded by people who reminds me of my failure.
Perhaps what I need is to have my closest, closest friends offer me their consolation and talk to me, which has yet to happen. Meanwhile, I'll just have to put on that 'everything's fine' mask that I've been using every now and then for the past six years.
